It really irks me when my husband utters the words "you are such a prude." He didn't think that I was a prude before we got married. But then again if he did, we may have not been married. I'd like to think that before I got married that I was fairly adventurous in and out of the bedroom. We would go at it wherever we could; on the top of a hill, in the car, in the swimming pool, or the side of the road. Just being away from home would be enough to get me in the mood.
Now, I just can't be bothered. If he even looks at me with lust in his eyes, I shoot him down. Either I am too tired or not in the mood. However, he is always in the mood. The only time I get in the mood is when I am ovulating.
I know that it's not fair to him but "life isn't fair." Marriage is so draining and I feel it takes a lot out of me just to maintain it. You have to deal with nosy in-laws, work school, bills, and in most cases kids. By the time the lights go out the last thing I want is to be touched. I just want to go to sleep.
Sex is the last thing on my mind as I am slowly drifting off to sleep when I hear "baby do you wanna do it?" I turn around and snap "no I don't want to do it, I am tired!!" Immediately, I regret my response. I know that I could have responded in a kinder tone. I feel so bad that I offer the next best thing "oral sex." At least that way I feel like I did do something and I won't come off as a "bitch." I wonder does that make me a prude.
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