The Prude

It really irks me when my husband utters the words "you are such a prude." He didn't think that I was a prude before we got married. But then again if he did, we may have not been married. I'd like to think that before I got married that I was fairly adventurous in and out of the bedroom. We would go at it wherever we could; on the top of a hill, in the car, in the swimming pool, or the side of the road. Just being away from home would be enough to get me in the mood.

Now, I just can't be bothered. If he even looks at me with lust in his eyes, I shoot him down. Either I am too tired or not in the mood. However, he is always in the mood. The only time I get in the mood is when I am ovulating.

I know that it's not fair to him but "life isn't fair." Marriage is so draining and I feel it takes a lot out of me just to maintain it. You have to deal with nosy in-laws, work school, bills, and in most cases kids. By the time the lights go out the last thing I want is to be touched. I just want to go to sleep.

Sex is the last thing on my mind as I am slowly drifting off to sleep when I hear "baby do you wanna do it?" I turn around and snap "no I don't want to do it, I am tired!!" Immediately, I regret my response. I know that I could have responded in a kinder tone. I feel so bad that I offer the next best thing "oral sex." At least that way I feel like I did do something and I won't come off as a "bitch." I wonder does that make me a prude.

Where are all of the jobs?

I know that we are in a recession but where are all of the jobs? I know that they exist. One of the first things that I do in the morning is check out my local newspaper to see where all of the job openings are. If you are not a truck driver, teacher, accountant, or nurse then there just isn't anything available to you. I guess I just answered my question. So then it seems that in order to get a job, you have no choice but to go back to school and get your degree in any one of these areas. If that isn't an option then there is always the military. It is steady reliable work and it beats having to go to multiple interviews.